hello.
i'm back.
with a different situation now.
isn't as hectic.
submitted my lastest assignment last wed
:)
and my next assignment will be way to the end of june.
:)
but currently, i'm busy filling up the report books and doing portfolios of my 42 children.
luckily sharifah is ard to help
:)
TGIF!
can't wait to meet up with my lovelies.
catch movie? karaoke?
all i want now is to shop.
got a bbq to attend on sun.
i'm glad now tt i get to meet my gfs, spend more time with them.
dear ain. can i have the photos from EEN's bday suprise at botanical garden pretty pls
shaf, call me, i can't get thru u.\
and clara, eat sakae okay...
i can't be bothered with shitts happening.
back in 2004? head over heels?
oh please! i was madly in love with my boyfriend.
so dont spout nonsense.
get your facts right before spitting it out.
oh wells!
i mean no harm.
i've got better matters to attend to rather than this.
just felt like 'cleansing' myself by posting.
.
out.
on friday.
most of the girls from the gossip clan was present.
it's been so long since we met (as i'm not aware of the meet ups anymore)
kak yani & yana, yana, siti and hawa.
nana, syahidah and hawa couldnt make it.
we walked ard town looking for things and talking at the same time.
both of my twin sisters were asking abt the situation.
they've heard my side of the story.
and i told them a secret which i've hold on a very very long time.
i guess it time they know.
even tho it had, it wont change anything.
i'm still moving on.
doing what i'm supposed to do.
enuf of that.
we had a blast that day.
and i'm looking forward for another one.
definately w/o the boys.
ouhk if can pls ask kak taty too..
:)
25th May 09.
handed in my assignment.
didn't sleep the whole till the next morng except for a few winks.
one assignment down
and plentiful more to go.
tt date also marks the date i wasn't forward too.
it used to mean something.
but now..
nc (no comments).
ours was a hush hush thingy.
it has been 3 wks
and now more has come to know.
it just sucks to talk about it all over again.
but then again.
people are showing their concern,
sincerely, i appreciate it.
okay enuff.
back to reality.
i've got lots in store for me in the upcoming months.
some which i dread and some which i'm excited for.
JUNE : PTCs (which means port folios to be done by then. 3 anec rcds + 18 wrkg samples)
luckily i have sharifah as my partner in crime.
thanks darlingkus:)
JUNE: TREE TOP TRAIL -with the girls.
JULY: PARTYY - with NFC (can't really elaborate but its gonna be awesome) together with my partner, RUZITA, the programme planners, we're gonna WORK it out!
JULY : the start of my ACTION RESEARCH. sigh..i don't know if i could go thru this.
and definitely more little things in between like birthdays celebration, assignments, occasions and stuff.
not forgetting roles that i've been assigned too.
thats it for now, i hope.
talk about getting myself occupied.
i'm over-occupied.
can't wait to meet my gossip sisters this friday and bestie ain this weeknd.
and clara and een and shaf and many mnay more of my love ones.
i'm renting a car this wknd! yeayness!
see, i knew things are going to turn out this way.
you are making mak worried sick.
you promised that u'll tkcr of urself.
and i told u to keep away from that 'bestfriend" of urs.
mak called me in the middle of the night to look for you.
what the hell is wrong with you?
pls.
don't do this.
I hope you know,
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We got some straightening' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
.
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foreseek the dark ahead if I stay
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity,
peace,serenity.
dari saat ini dia akan hilang dari hidupku.
dia yang pernah menjadi cahaya hidupku.
kekuatanku.
sahabatku.
yg telah bersama ku melalui
pahit manis dalam hidup ini.
walaupun telah lapan tahun bersama.
mungkin jodoh kita hanya sampai disini sahaja.
hanya TUHAN yang tahu betapa sedih hati ini.
mungkin aku kelihatan gembira ,
tetapi di lusuk hatiku,
tiada orang yang tahu.
Biarkanlah
Biarkan aku hidup sendirian
Tak ingin ku mengenangkan kisah lama
Biarkanlah
Biarkan aku hidup sendirian
Kerana hati ini telah dilukai
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All that I know is I'm ma be ok
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I'll believe in
And I know time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm ma be ok
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
p/s: i know you can do it.. i want you to be independent.
it hurts. it really does.
but we have to face it
prove me wrong by succeeding and
achieving everything you wanted in life.
i'm proud of you.
u know i always do.
i miss them.
i know all of us are with our own life.
but i think we need to meet up.
okay.
soon?
pretty please.
:(
dear een,
i read ur blog,
ya i miss you too.
i miss 'US' even more.
